If you have read my previous articles on the topic of self-awareness, I have some exciting news! I have finally reached a place where I can honestly tell you that I am a low quality person. This is not just my opinion either. I have been in therapy for over a year now and it has been beneficial to me. I have stopped talking so much about myself and my past behaviors and I have focused on things I can control, especially my negative self-talk.
I don’t think I ever said I was a low quality person before, though I think I may have said it before. In fact, I think I might even have said it once, but I think that was only to anyone who was unaware of the person I used to be. I still am, but my present behavior is much better.
I know what I did wrong, but I dont know what I did wrong. I never did anything wrong, just that I didnt know how to do it.
I do know that I put me in a position where I could be more than a human, but I don’t know how to react.
This is very difficult because we are all human, but we all have to make choices. The question is: How do we make choices that are right for us? Is it by self-awareness, or is it through some kind of meta-cognition. You can’t just make choices based on your feelings because you feel something, but you can try to make sure you don’t feel something and you can make it so you don’t do it.
When we were in school, I thought to myself that if I ever really wanted to learn how to do it, I’d always be a “mishandrist.” If I ever wanted to learn how to do it, I could make it a “mishandrist.” I would have to get my hands dirty and make sure I use the right tools.
That’s not to say that mishandrist would be completely without a learning curve, but it would certainly be a lot less difficult than it is in real life. I’m not saying that the tools that we use in real life won’t be the best tools, or that we shouldn’t try to use them. But I am saying that the way we use them is probably the only way we can use them.
I get that handling things and tools is a matter of personal preference. But just because you use it in a certain way doesn’t mean it’s the best way to use it. At this point we have a lot of these tools that are either really bad, or just not particularly good. But we still have a lot of this stuff that we use that we probably shouldnt be using. We should use tools that will help us, not hinder us.
The thing is that the tools and equipment we have are not designed for the job we have at hand. We really cant have the best tool set and hope that when we need it, it works. A good tool may work just fine in a pinch, but it wont do the job it was designed for.
Tools are not designed for the job they were designed to do. When it comes to the tools available to us, we are in fact designing for the job we have at hand. I guess we should be grateful that we have a few tools available to us, they just don’t do the job we need them to do. A tool that works for one person, may not work for another, and the “just works” part is just a myth.